Last year, our word of the year was home. I dreamt of home, I yearned for a home, and all the while I had certain lyrics in the back of my head:
No matter how hard I try
You’re never satisfied
This is not a home
I think I’m better off alone
(lyrics by 3 Days Grace: Home).
While we haven’t quite gotten to our goal yet, I’d like to think that we came one step closer. We may be renting and it may be someone else’s apartment, but it’s our home. For the moment at least. And for the moment, I am happy in knowing that now we have a piece of mind and our little place to consider our safe haven.
Knowing where we want to go, and what we want to achieve, our word for the year is focus. While we took a break during December, we had a lot of time to reflect on the year that was slowly creeping out the door, but also on the four years we spent here, trying to get back on track and trying to re-build our life.
Trying to be a family, and establish our routine. Our “rules”. Our guidelines. Our family manifesto.
And feeling like we are fighting an uphill battle.
Getting a business off the ground.
And then of course there is the baby.
An unexpected blessing.
So much has happened, and yet it feels like we haven’t moved an inch.
I’ll be honest, at times we felt like we were stuck in an endless loop. Stuck on repeat. Pressing to go forward, winding back up in the same place.
We took a leap and said let’s do this. Let’s try. And it was a giant leap. And I was/am scared that something will come and burst our bubble again and we will wind up back where we started.
But as scared as I am, my gut keeps telling me it will all work out. It tells me to FOCUS on the one thing we want.
I wouldn’t be myself if I didn’t follow my gut. So FOCUS it is. Our word for the year. Our intention for the year.
To focus on our dream and take baby steps to get there. As little and insignificant as they may seem. To do more of what feels right, and do less of what will set us back.
Even if that means doing only one thing. As long as that one thing ties in with our overall goal, that’s all that matters. Because sometimes, by doing less you actually wind up doing more.